co-sleeping pain
Every morning I wake up in pain - my shoulders, my hips - and my lower back - I LOVE snuggling up next to a warm baby in bed - and we both get pretty good uninterrupted sleep and don’t have to get up to nurse in the middle of the night - but I seriously don’t know how much longer I can sleep with my body all contorted so as to not disturb little Rosie’s sleep when it means I wake up in the morning and feel like I got run over by a truck! ugh! If I try to put her in the co-sleeper attached to the bed - she wakes up in 1/2 hour at the most - but when she is next to me - she sleeps great - I guess this is just one of the many sacrifices of being a mom…Thank god for chiropractors - I am asking for a massage for x-mas!
Rosie was fussy all morning and wouldn’t really nurse or nap (I had to take her to work with me and she didn’t like it at all) - then as soon as we got in the car to go home she fell asleep and I couldn’t bear to wake her up when we got home so she has been sleeping in her car seat in the living room next to me for the last 2 hours!
hate to say it but, for me at least, this bodily contortion is still very much happening at 25 months. some nights more than others but last night she was in my bed and back to her crib twice. i know it was because i had put her to bed kind of angrily so it was kind of my fault but she is definately all about pushing my buttons for a reaction lately (all the more reason why i shouldn’t react, right? i’m trying.) let me set the scene. it was close to her bedtime but i was lettting her play with a new toy (this elmo learn through music thing that has a computer-like screen that lights up with images coordinated with music) while i tried to squeeze in some yoga for the day. She was loudly shout/talking “twinkle twinkle little star” into the toy’s attached microphone as if she were an emo rocker when she stopped mid-song to ask for a snack of hummus and carrots. I agreed but was reminded of a time when the hummus became a sculpting medium so after i got her to promise (with eye-contact; this is important) to not make a mess i happily went back to my yoga feeling so proud. yes, she had been extremely challanging all day but it was so worth it all to hear her sweetly request “carroths and hummuths pleese” with her lisp. “wow,” i couldn’t help but think “im doing a great job moming it.” ah hubris. needless to say
Comment by Emily Levy — January 25, 2006 @ 9:56 am
it only took her about ten minutes of snacking before she decided to put a thin layer or hummus all over the entire screen of her new toy, spackle the toy’s speaker holes with it and then make finger prints all over her little kitchen table. so i was pissed. she got washed up (hummus to the elbows and in hair), brushed up and jammied in under 2 minutes and was put to bed by a very unfriendly mom without a bath or a book. it wouldn’t have made me so mad if she didn’t stare at me with that challanging little smirk when i went in the kitchen to check on her. i know she’s only two but she knows exactly what she is doing. when i asked her why she made a mess she told me “on purpose”. this made me cry with frustration which seemed really interesting to her until she was left in her crib screaming “i want to do yoga”. anyway, after our battle last night i expected she would wake up wanting to “snuggle and nursie” in mommy’s bed. but she won’t let us sleep so its always back to the crib after my nipples start to get sore. if she would just fall asleep and stop kicking her dad and pinching me we would just let her stay.
Comment by Emily Levy — January 25, 2006 @ 10:14 am